\u0130nsan bazen bir yalandan de\u011fil, o yalana nas\u0131l olup da kap\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan incinir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her yalan, yaln\u0131zca onu s\u00f6yleyenin dudaklar\u0131nda do\u011fmaz; biraz da onu duyan\u0131n i\u00e7indeki eksik odalarda yank\u0131 bulur. Kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki insan g\u00f6zlerimizin i\u00e7ine baka baka hakikati e\u011fip b\u00fckerken, mesele sadece onun vicdan\u0131nda m\u0131 aranmal\u0131d\u0131r? Yoksa insan, biraz da kendi k\u0131r\u0131k yerlerinden s\u0131zan karanl\u0131\u011fa yenildi\u011fi i\u00e7in mi aldan\u0131r? Belki de baz\u0131 yalanlar, bize d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelmez; i\u00e7imizde \u00e7oktan haz\u0131r bekleyen bo\u015fluklara yerle\u015fir.<\/p>\n
As\u0131l yaralayan, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman yalan\u0131n kendisi de\u011fildir; o yalan\u0131n bizde buldu\u011fu s\u0131cakl\u0131kt\u0131r. Her yalan, tutunacak bir dal de\u011fil, s\u0131zacak bir \u00e7atlak arar. Bazen o \u00e7atlak sevilme arzusudur, bazen terk edilme korkusu, bazen de ger\u00e7e\u011fin so\u011fuk y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmaya cesaret edemeyen bir ruhun \u00fcrkekli\u011fi. \u0130nsan, i\u015fitmek istedi\u011fi \u015feye inanmay\u0131 se\u00e7ti\u011finde, hakikatin sert ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 eliyle iter de yan\u0131lsaman\u0131n kadife \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcne yaslan\u0131r. Ve sonra bir g\u00fcn anlar ki; kendisini inciten yaln\u0131zca kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki de\u011fildir, kendi i\u00e7inde sessizce boyun e\u011fen o k\u0131r\u0131lgan taraf da bu incinmenin orta\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Zaman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en ince trajedilerinden biri de budur i\u015fte: \u0130nsan art\u0131k hakikatten \u00e7ok iknaya yak\u0131nd\u0131r. S\u00f6z, bir zamanlar anlam\u0131n ve irfan\u0131n ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131; \u015fimdi \u00e7o\u011fu kez parlat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir egemenlik arac\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f durumda. Art\u0131k konu\u015fmak yaln\u0131zca anlatmak de\u011fildir; etkilemek, s\u00fcr\u00fcklemek, y\u00f6n vermek, hatta g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeden h\u00fckmetmektir. Bir insan\u0131n, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakinin zihnine usul usul i\u015fleyip ona kendi sesini unutturmas\u0131\u2026 bundan daha sessiz, bundan daha zarif bir tahakk\u00fcm olabilir mi? Kelimeler bazen bir kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7maz; aksine insan\u0131n kendi i\u00e7ine giden yolu \u00f6rter. Ve ne gariptir, \u00e7o\u011fu insan da bunu bir yara gibi de\u011fil, bir yak\u0131nl\u0131k san\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Oysa tarih, kelimelerin k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7lardan daha derin yaralar a\u00e7abildi\u011fini \u00e7oktan yazd\u0131. En b\u00fcy\u00fck istilalar bazen s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 de\u011fil, zihinleri hedef ald\u0131. Antik meydanlarda hakikatin de\u011fil, iknan\u0131n alk\u0131\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnlerden bug\u00fcne \u00e7ok \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de insan ruhunun zaaflar\u0131 ayn\u0131 kald\u0131. Sadece sahne de\u011fi\u015fti. Meydanlar ekran oldu, y\u00fczler filtrelendi, sesler \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131; fakat insan yine o kadim insan olarak kald\u0131: \u0130nanmak istedi\u011fine inanan, d\u00fczeni bozulmas\u0131n diye ger\u00e7e\u011fi susturan, g\u00f6z g\u00f6re g\u00f6re s\u00f6ylenen bir yalana bile bazen s\u0131rf yaln\u0131z kalmamak i\u00e7in raz\u0131 olan bir varl\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Ne tuhaft\u0131r; bazen birine \u201cSen k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fcn\u201d demek, \u201cBen seni yanl\u0131\u015f yerde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm\u201d demekten daha kolayd\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakinin ahlaki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc kabullenmeyi, kendi duygusal k\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyle y\u00fczle\u015fmeye tercih eder. Oysa kimi yalanlar kaba de\u011fildir; aksine son derece zariftir. K\u0131rmadan k\u0131rar, ba\u011f\u0131rmadan bast\u0131r\u0131r, incitmeden incitir. Bir insan sizin sevgiye a\u00e7\u0131k yerinizi, onay bekleyen yan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131, anla\u015f\u0131lmak isteyen i\u00e7inizi sezdi\u011finde; art\u0131k s\u00f6yledi\u011fi \u015fey yaln\u0131zca bir s\u00f6z olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kar. Bir iktidar bi\u00e7imine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Hem de \u00f6yle a\u00e7\u0131ktan a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa de\u011fil; ipek bir eldivenin i\u00e7indeki so\u011fuk el gibi. Yaray\u0131 a\u00e7an \u00e7o\u011fu zaman b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n keskinli\u011fi de\u011fil, onu tutan elin \u015fefkat taklididir.<\/p>\n
Sonra bir e\u015fik gelir. \u0130nsan, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakini \u00e7\u00f6zmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan yorulur da kendi i\u00e7ine d\u00f6nmeye ba\u015flar. \u0130\u015fte o an, b\u00fcy\u00fck kopu\u015flar\u0131n de\u011fil, b\u00fcy\u00fck uyan\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 and\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan en \u00e7ok, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yalanlar\u0131na inan\u0131rken de\u011fil, kendi hakikatine ge\u00e7 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda eksilir. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n c\u00fcmlelerinde kendini aramak, susuzlu\u011funu denizde gidermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak gibidir; i\u00e7tik\u00e7e daha \u00e7ok yanars\u0131n. Bu y\u00fczden bir g\u00fcn, b\u00fct\u00fcn o bulan\u0131k s\u00f6zlerin, yar\u0131m do\u011frular\u0131n, cilal\u0131 kand\u0131rmacalar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan insan kendi i\u00e7 sesinin kap\u0131s\u0131na dayan\u0131r. \u201cSorun bende mi?\u201d diye sorar. Ve belki de ilk kez, bu soruyla birlikte ger\u00e7ekten kendine yakla\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ama insan\u0131n kendine yakla\u015fmas\u0131yla kendini su\u00e7lamas\u0131 aras\u0131nda ince, \u00e7ok ince bir \u00e7izgi vard\u0131r. Kendine d\u00f6nmek, kendini mahk\u00fbm etmek de\u011fildir. Her yalan\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc kendi omzuna almak, ruhunu gereksiz bir mahkemenin san\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00e7evirmektir. Evet, insan kendi zaaflar\u0131n\u0131 bilmeli, kendi k\u00f6r noktalar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeli, kendi k\u0131r\u0131lganl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla d\u00fcr\u00fcst\u00e7e y\u00fczle\u015fmelidir. Fakat bunu yaparken ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc kendi eksikli\u011fine terc\u00fcme edecek kadar zalimle\u015fmemelidir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6z ele\u015ftiri ruha ayna tutar; \u00f6z k\u0131y\u0131m ise aynay\u0131 k\u0131rar. Bilgelik bazen hakikati g\u00f6rmek de\u011fil, kendine hangi g\u00f6zle bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmektir.<\/p>\n
Belki de insan ili\u015fkilerinde as\u0131l maharet, yalandan tamamen korunmak de\u011fil; hakikatin odadan ne zaman \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sezmektir. Her soru, insan\u0131n eline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir fener gibidir. Ama her \u0131\u015f\u0131k, g\u00f6rmek istemedi\u011fimiz \u015feyi de ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden bazen insan, \u201cSana soru sormazsam, yalan\u0131n\u0131 da duymam\u0131\u015f olurum,\u201d derken yaln\u0131zca kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki ki\u015fiden de\u011fil, kendi kalbinin k\u0131r\u0131lma ihtimalinden de sak\u0131n\u0131r. Ne var ki suskunluk, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman bir s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak de\u011fil, ertelenmi\u015f bir y\u00fczle\u015fmedir. Hakikat kap\u0131y\u0131 ge\u00e7 \u00e7alar belki; ama mutlaka \u00e7alar.<\/p>\n
Ve sonunda insan \u015funu \u00f6\u011frenir: Ger\u00e7ek, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n dilinde de\u011fil, insan\u0131n kendi i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen sessizlikte k\u00f6k salar. Bir g\u00fcn gelir, g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine baka baka s\u00f6ylenen yalanlar art\u0131k seni eskisi kadar sarsmaz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n sesinden \u00e7ok kendi i\u00e7indeki yank\u0131ya kulak vermeyi \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftir. \u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcn, kar\u015f\u0131 taraftan b\u0131k\u0131p kendine y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Ve belki de hayat dedi\u011fimiz uzun yolculukta, insan\u0131n eve en \u00e7ok yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 an tam da budur.<\/p>\n
Sizlere Gelecekte G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek \u00dczerine Meydan Okuyorum.<\/b><\/p>\n
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\u0130nsan bazen bir yalandan de\u011fil, o yalana nas\u0131l olup da kap\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan incinir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her yalan, yaln\u0131zca onu s\u00f6yleyenin dudaklar\u0131nda do\u011fmaz; biraz da onu duyan\u0131n i\u00e7indeki eksik odalarda yank\u0131 bulur. Kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki insan g\u00f6zlerimizin i\u00e7ine baka baka hakikati e\u011fip b\u00fckerken, mesele sadece onun vicdan\u0131nda m\u0131 aranmal\u0131d\u0131r? Yoksa insan, biraz da kendi k\u0131r\u0131k yerlerinden s\u0131zan karanl\u0131\u011fa yenildi\u011fi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":142064,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[37],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-143128","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-safak-genc"],"views":38,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143128","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=143128"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143128\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":143129,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143128\/revisions\/143129"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/142064"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=143128"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=143128"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=143128"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}