{"id":108167,"date":"2025-09-16T13:32:00","date_gmt":"2025-09-16T10:32:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/?p=108167"},"modified":"2025-09-16T13:32:00","modified_gmt":"2025-09-16T10:32:00","slug":"emanetine-sukunet-ettim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/2025\/09\/16\/emanetine-sukunet-ettim\/","title":{"rendered":"EMANET\u0130NE SUK\u00dbNET ETT\u0130M"},"content":{"rendered":"<div dir=\"ltr\">Yapraklar\u0131n a\u011flayarak, can h\u0131ra\u015f \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klarla, susuz kalm\u0131\u015f ama sudan da\u00a0b\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sa\u011fanak bir \u015fekilde tezah\u00fcr etti\u011fi bir\u00a0mevsimdi. T\u00fcm griliklerin \u00e7ok renklili\u011finden utand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemdi\u00a0anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla. O kadar g\u00fczel bir sahne tezah\u00fcr ediyordu ki\u00a0kaderimin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na oturmu\u015f bu \u015fansl\u0131 \u00e7ocu\u011fun, \u015fans\u0131n\u0131n yaver gidi\u015fini\u00a0izliyordum. A\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 sonras\u0131nda ne t\u00fcr bir a\u011flakl\u0131\u011fa sahip olabilece\u011fimi\u00a0az \u00e7ok tahmin edebiliyordum ama bu k\u00f6t\u00fc hikayenin bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olmak da istemiyordum. Zaten ben ba\u015f\u0131ndan beridir ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0senaryolar\u0131 oynamay\u0131 sevmiyordun. O y\u00fczden gitsindi.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Gidiyorum dedi ve gitti.<\/div>\n<div>Ezeli ve ebedi olmayan bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc bu. Hani\u00a0derler ya ne ba\u015f\u0131 ne sonu belli de\u011fil. G\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131nda gelmi\u015fti g\u00fcn\u00a0bat\u0131m\u0131nda gitti. Giderken beni de g\u00f6t\u00fcr dedim s\u0131rt\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131yor dedi.\u00a0Anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Gelmi\u015fti yaralar\u0131n\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve gitmi\u015fti. Ke\u015fke giderken\u00a0haber verseydi. Bir haz\u0131rl\u0131k, bir yolluk, bir nefeslik \u015feyler payla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m\u00a0seninle. Bu zul\u00fcml\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcm hi\u00e7 yak\u0131\u015fmad\u0131 bana ama bildi\u011fim tek \u015fey var bu\u00a0ayr\u0131l\u0131k en \u00e7ok da sana yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Belli bir s\u00fcre sonra sorgulamay\u0131 unutuyor insan. \u00c7ok sevdi\u011finden midir,\u00a0g\u00fcvendi\u011finden midir, vakit bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0131d\u0131r nedir bilmem. Mesela\u00a0yumurtan\u0131n neden tam pi\u015fmedi\u011fini dert edebiliyor insan ama bir yalana\u00a0boyun e\u011fmiyor ve kabullenemiyor bile. \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n kokusu geliyor baz\u0131\u00a0an akl\u0131na, ya da akl\u0131ndakinin yerine, hem kim demi\u015f ku\u015flar iyidir diye.\u00a0Ben bir pazartesileri birde ku\u015flar\u0131 sevmem. Pazartesi \u00f6ten bir ku\u015f\u00a0g\u00f6rd\u00fcm m\u00fc akl\u0131ma gidi\u015fin gelir zaten.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Ortal\u0131k sessiz de\u011fil asl\u0131nda bana sayg\u0131lar\u0131ndan ses etmiyorlar bilesin.\u00a0Yoksa herkesin dilinde k\u00fcf\u00fcr, kalbinde tekbir sana varamamak an\u00a0meselesi, seni anmak en kuytu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Kalem ka\u011f\u0131t \u015fiir falan diyor baz\u0131lar\u0131, bide bunu para kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 sat\u0131yor.\u00a0Onlar benden seni dinlememi\u015f olanlad\u0131r, bu y\u00fczdendir onlar\u0131n\u00a0utanmazl\u0131\u011f\u0131, Her g\u00fcn g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fuyor mu\u015f kime ne ? \u0130nsan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011finde\u00a0do\u011fmayan g\u00fcne\u015fin, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrmeyen g\u00fcne\u015fin ne anlam\u0131 var ki?<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Bir bebe\u011fin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fclmesi, trafik \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n topyek\u00fbn maviyi\u00a0g\u00f6stermesi gibiydi gidi\u015fin. Bir gemi a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r yol almaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u00a0d\u00fcnyadaki son limandan, yolcusu yok izleyicisi yok ve geri d\u00f6nmeyecekti\u00a0giden o siyahl\u0131 demir ucube.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Ke\u015fke her \u015fey seni sevmek kadar g\u00fczel olsayd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsene gazeteler\u00a0g\u00fczel haberler yazar herkes mutlu olurdu. Havan\u0131n birden bozmas\u0131 ne\u00a0alaka ben onu anlamad\u0131m. Sa\u011fanak sevgi ya\u011fmurunda \u0131slan\u0131rken herkes\u00a0bize ayr\u0131l\u0131klar d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc san\u0131r\u0131m yine. Olsun nasip k\u0131smet yada hakk\u0131mdaki<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">hay\u0131rl\u0131 olan buydu san\u0131r\u0131m. Hay\u0131r. Benim hakk\u0131m olan ve k\u0131smetim olan\u00a0sendin.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">\u015eimdi kime itiraz edeyim, kime dileneyim seni, bir ak\u0131l ver bir yol g\u00f6ster.\u00a0Tek \u015feritli geli\u015flerin \u00e7ok \u015feritli d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015flerinde kald\u0131m ve b\u0131rak evimi\u00a0kendimi bile bulam\u0131yorum, yol ortalar\u0131nda. Akl\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fil kendimi\u00a0s\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m san\u0131r\u0131m.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Geli\u015fine de\u011fil g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne emanetti bu sevda, emanetine s\u00fck\u00fbnet ettim.<\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"ltr\">Sizlere Gelecekte G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek \u00fczerine Meydan Okuyorum.<\/div>\n<p>Orada G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015felim&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yapraklar\u0131n a\u011flayarak, can h\u0131ra\u015f \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klarla, susuz kalm\u0131\u015f ama sudan da\u00a0b\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sa\u011fanak bir \u015fekilde tezah\u00fcr etti\u011fi bir\u00a0mevsimdi. T\u00fcm griliklerin \u00e7ok renklili\u011finden utand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemdi\u00a0anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla. O kadar g\u00fczel bir sahne tezah\u00fcr ediyordu ki\u00a0kaderimin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na oturmu\u015f bu \u015fansl\u0131 \u00e7ocu\u011fun, \u015fans\u0131n\u0131n yaver gidi\u015fini\u00a0izliyordum. A\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 sonras\u0131nda ne t\u00fcr bir a\u011flakl\u0131\u011fa sahip olabilece\u011fimi\u00a0az \u00e7ok tahmin edebiliyordum ama [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":108168,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[37],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-108167","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-safak-genc"],"views":826,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/108167","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=108167"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/108167\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/108168"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=108167"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=108167"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=108167"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}