{"id":103072,"date":"2025-07-21T12:53:45","date_gmt":"2025-07-21T09:53:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/?p=103072"},"modified":"2025-07-21T13:52:12","modified_gmt":"2025-07-21T10:52:12","slug":"3-boy-verin-boya-verin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/2025\/07\/21\/3-boy-verin-boya-verin\/","title":{"rendered":"BOY VER\u0130N BOYA VER\u0130N"},"content":{"rendered":"
\u00a0Park\u0131n duvarlar\u0131n\u0131 boyayan adama yakla\u015f\u0131p, “Day\u0131 beni de\u00a0boyasana” dedim .<\/div>\n
Adam anadan \u00e7\u0131kma psikolog mesaj\u0131 hemen ald\u0131.<\/div>\n
“Onu da sen yapacaks\u0131n” dedi.<\/div>\n
Bende ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m BOYA VER\u0130N LAAAAANNN..<\/div>\n
Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn parkta dola\u015f\u0131rken, duvarlar\u0131 boyayan bir adam g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Elinde\u00a0f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131, \u00f6n\u00fcnde boya kutular\u0131, kendi d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda bir \u015feyler \u00e7izip\u00a0duruyordu. Yakla\u015ft\u0131m, biraz muziplik olsun diye, \u201cDay\u0131, beni de boyasana,\u201d\u00a0dedim. Adam bir an durdu, f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 havada tutup bana bakt\u0131. Sanki\u00a0g\u00f6zleriyle i\u00e7imi tarad\u0131, sonra g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi ve \u201cOnu sen yapacaks\u0131n abi,\u201d\u00a0dedi.<\/div>\n
O an i\u00e7imden bir \u015fey koptu, ba\u011f\u0131ras\u0131m geldi. \u201cBOYA VER\u0130N\u00a0LAAAAANNN!\u201d diye hayk\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/div>\n
Sesim park\u0131n sessizli\u011finde yank\u0131lan\u0131rken\u00a0hem kendime g\u00fcld\u00fcm hem de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dald\u0131m.<\/div>\n
Hayat b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey de\u011fil mi zaten?<\/div>\n
Sana f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 uzat\u0131yorlar, ama boyay\u0131\u00a0kendin bulmak zorundas\u0131n.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 Hayat\u0131n\u0131 Hangi Renge Boyamal\u0131s\u0131n?<\/div>\n
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Bu olay beni uzun uzun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Duvarlar\u0131 boyayan o adam, sadece bir\u00a0i\u015f\u00e7i de\u011fildi bence. Sanki bir ayna gibi, bana kendimi g\u00f6sterdi. \u201cBeni\u00a0boya,\u201d derken asl\u0131nda \u015funu mu kastediyordum:<\/div>\n
\u201cHayat\u0131m renksiz, biri\u00a0gelip bir \u015feyler kats\u0131n, d\u00fczeltsin, g\u00fczelle\u015ftirsin.\u201d<\/div>\n
Ama o adam\u0131n cevab\u0131,\u00a0b\u00fct\u00fcn bu beklentilerimi ters y\u00fcz etti. \u201cOnu sen yapacaks\u0131n,\u201d dedi ya, i\u015fte\u00a0o c\u00fcmle kafamda bir kap\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/div>\n
Hayat\u0131n renkleri ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n elinde\u00a0de\u011fil, benim avu\u00e7lar\u0131mda. Peki o zaman, neden hep birilerinin gelip o\u00a0boyay\u0131 s\u00fcrmesini bekliyorum?<\/div>\n
Felsefe okumay\u0131 severim, arada bir Nietzsche\u2019ye, Sartre\u2019a g\u00f6z atar\u0131m.<\/div>\n
Hepsi de \u015fu ya da bu \u015fekilde insan\u0131n kendi yolunu \u00e7izmesi gerekti\u011finden\u00a0bahseder. Nietzsche\u2019nin \u201cTanr\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fc\u201d laf\u0131 mesela, kula\u011fa a\u011f\u0131r gelir ama\u00a0\u00f6z\u00fcnde \u015funu s\u00f6yler:<\/div>\n
“Art\u0131k kimse seni kurtarmaya gelmeyecek, ipler senin\u00a0elinde.”<\/div>\n
O duvar\u0131 boyayan adam da bana bunu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 i\u015fte. Belki de\u00a0fark\u0131nda bile de\u011fildi, ama o an bir filozofa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmde.<\/div>\n
Hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fkalar\u0131ndan beklemek, bir nevi tembellik de\u011fil mi?<\/div>\n
Boya orada, f\u0131r\u00e7a orada, duvar orada.<\/div>\n
\u00a0E, neyi bekliyorsun?<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Tabii, i\u015fin bir de \u015fu boyutu var:<\/div>\n
Boyay\u0131 almak kolay da, hangi rengi\u00a0se\u00e7eceksin? Hayat\u0131n karma\u015fas\u0131 burada ba\u015fl\u0131yor bence. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 m\u0131\u00a0s\u00fcreceksin, mavi mi? Ya da belki griye raz\u0131 m\u0131 geleceksin? Parktaki\u00a0adam\u0131n elinde birka\u00e7 kutu boya vard\u0131, ama benim hayat\u0131mda se\u00e7enekler o\u00a0kadar s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 de\u011fil. Her g\u00fcn bir karar veriyorum asl\u0131nda; neyi\u00a0d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnece\u011fim, neye g\u00fclece\u011fim, kime k\u0131zaca\u011f\u0131m. Bunlar\u0131n hepsi birer f\u0131r\u00e7a\u00a0darbesi. Ama \u00e7o\u011fu zaman elim titriyor, boyay\u0131 sa\u011fa sola sa\u00e7\u0131yorum. Sonra\u00a0da d\u00f6n\u00fcp diyorum ki, \u201cKe\u015fke biri gelip bunu d\u00fczg\u00fcnce boyasa.\u201d Aptall\u0131k\u00a0de\u011fil mi bu?<\/div>\n
Bir yandan da \u015funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum: Hayat\u0131n renklerini se\u00e7mek \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fckse,\u00a0bu \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck bazen insan\u0131 yoruyor. Sartre\u2019\u0131n o me\u015fhur \u201c\u0130nsan \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe\u00a0mahk\u00fbmdur\u201d laf\u0131 bo\u015funa de\u011fil.<\/div>\n
\u00d6zg\u00fcrs\u00fcn, ama bu \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck bir y\u00fck gibi\u00a0omuzlar\u0131na biniyor. Duvar\u0131 boyamak istiyorsun, ama ya yanl\u0131\u015f bir renk\u00a0se\u00e7ersem korkusu var. Ya da boyad\u0131ktan sonra be\u011fenmezsem?<\/div>\n
Parktaki\u00a0adam\u0131n umurunda m\u0131yd\u0131 bunlar bilmiyorum, ama benim umurumda. Belki de\u00a0bu y\u00fczden \u201cBeni boyasana\u201d dedim ona. Sorumlulu\u011fu bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u015fkas\u0131na\u00a0atmak istedim. Ama o, sa\u011f olsun, topu hemen bana geri paslad\u0131.<\/div>\n
Bu olaydan sonra \u015funu fark ettim:<\/div>\n
Hayat, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n sana uzataca\u011f\u0131\u00a0boyayla renklenmez. Sen f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 eline almazsan, o duvar hep soluk kal\u0131r.\u00a0Ama f\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 ald\u0131n diyelim, o zaman da ba\u015fka bir mesele \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor: Hangi\u00a0darbeyi nereye vuracaks\u0131n? Bazen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, acaba \u00e7ok mu kafa\u00a0yoruyorum bu i\u015flere? Belki de parkta o adam gibi, sadece elime boyay\u0131\u00a0al\u0131p s\u00fcrmeye ba\u015flamal\u0131y\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden, hesap yapmadan. Ama i\u015fte,\u00a0insan\u0131z ya, illa bir anlam ar\u0131yoruz. Duvara att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her \u00e7izgide bir\u00a0hik\u00e2ye olsun istiyoruz.<\/div>\n
Peki, ya duvar zaten boyal\u0131ysa? Ya biz fark\u0131nda olmadan \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcst\u00fcne\u00a0katlar \u00e7ekiyorsak? Hayat\u0131m\u0131z belki de b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey. \u00c7ocukken bir renk\u00a0at\u0131yorsun, gen\u00e7ken bir tane daha, sonra b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e kat kat boyuyorsun.\u00a0Ama alttaki renkler hep orada, silinmiyor. Bazen ortaya kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir \u015fey\u00a0\u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, bazen de bir \u015faheser. Benim duvar\u0131m nas\u0131l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor acaba?\u00a0D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce, biraz karman \u00e7orman gibi. Ama yine de benim, elimden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0belli.<\/div>\n
Bir de \u015fu var: Boya dedi\u011fin \u015fey, \u00f6yle sonsuz de\u011fil. Parktaki adam\u0131n\u00a0kutular\u0131 bitecek elbet, benim de \u00f6mr\u00fcm. Her f\u0131r\u00e7a darbesinde biraz daha\u00a0azal\u0131yor elimdeki malzeme. Bu y\u00fczden mi acele ediyorum bazen,\u00a0bilmiyorum. Ama acele ederken de yanl\u0131\u015f yerlere boya s\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, sonra\u00a0d\u00f6n\u00fcp kendime k\u0131z\u0131yorum. Belki de mesele, boyay\u0131 dikkatli kullanmakta.<\/div>\n
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3\/3<\/div>\n
Az ama \u00f6z vurmakta darbeleri. Hayat\u0131n her an\u0131n\u0131 doldurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak\u00a0yerine, baz\u0131 yerleri bo\u015f b\u0131rakmakta.<\/div>\n
O adam\u0131n \u201cOnu sen yapacaks\u0131n\u201d laf\u0131, g\u00fcnlerdir akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor. Bana\u00a0bir g\u00f6rev verdi sanki.<\/div>\n
Sanki dedi ki, \u201cBak, ben bu duvar\u0131 boyuyorum, ama\u00a0senin duvar\u0131n h\u00e2l\u00e2 bo\u015f. Kalk bir \u015feyler yap.\u201d Hakl\u0131 galiba. Hayat,\u00a0ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n boyad\u0131\u011f\u0131 duvarlara bak\u0131p i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irmek de\u011fil. Kendi duvar\u0131n\u0131\u00a0boyamak, kendi rengine karar vermek. Ama i\u015fte, o \u201cBOYA VER\u0130N\u00a0LAAAAANNN!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rmam da bo\u015funa de\u011fil. Bazen insan, o boyay\u0131\u00a0bulmakta zorlan\u0131yor. Biri uzats\u0131n istiyor. Ama uzatan yok. Uzatan\u00a0olmay\u0131nca da ya pes ediyorsun ya da kalk\u0131p kendin aramaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun.<\/div>\n
Felsefeye geri d\u00f6neyim biraz. Stoac\u0131lar der ki, \u201cElinde olan\u0131 kontrol et,\u00a0olmayanla u\u011fra\u015fma.\u201d Duvar\u0131 boyamak elimde, boyay\u0131 bulmak da \u00f6yle. Ama\u00a0ya biri gelip \u00fcst\u00fcne bir \u015fey karalarsa? Ya ya\u011fmur ya\u011far da hepsi akarsa?\u00a0Bunlar elimde de\u011fil. O zaman ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m? San\u0131r\u0131m Stoac\u0131lar\u0131n dedi\u011fi\u00a0gibi, \u201cOlan\u0131 kabul et,\u201d diyece\u011fim. Ama i\u00e7imdeki asi taraf da bo\u015f durmuyor,\u00a0\u201cYeniden boya ulan!\u201d diyor. Hangisi do\u011fru bilmiyorum, ama ikisi de benden\u00a0bir par\u00e7a.<\/div>\n
Sonu\u00e7ta, parkta o adamla ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck an, bana \u015funu \u00f6\u011fretti:\u00a0Hayat\u0131n f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 benim elimde. Renkleri ben se\u00e7ece\u011fim, darbeleri ben\u00a0vuraca\u011f\u0131m. Biri beni boyas\u0131n diye beklemek, kendime ihanet olur.<\/div>\n
Ama\u00a0yine de insan\u0131z ya, bazen bir \u201cday\u0131”ya d\u00f6n\u00fcp, \u201cBeni de boyasana\u201d diye \u015faka\u00a0yapmak ho\u015fumuza gidiyor. Belki de as\u0131l mesele, o \u015fakay\u0131 yap\u0131p sonra\u00a0kalk\u0131p kendi boyam\u0131z\u0131 kendimiz s\u00fcrmekte. Duvar orada, f\u0131r\u00e7a haz\u0131r.\u00a0Geriye sadece bir kutu boya bulmak kal\u0131yor.<\/div>\n
E, ne duruyorum ki?<\/div>\n
Kalk\u0131p\u00a0arayay\u0131m bari.<\/div>\n
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Sizlere Gelecekte G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek \u00fczerine Meydan Okuyorum.<\/div>\n

Orada G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015felim…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0Park\u0131n duvarlar\u0131n\u0131 boyayan adama yakla\u015f\u0131p, “Day\u0131 beni de\u00a0boyasana” dedim . Adam anadan \u00e7\u0131kma psikolog mesaj\u0131 hemen ald\u0131. “Onu da sen yapacaks\u0131n” dedi. Bende ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m BOYA VER\u0130N LAAAAANNN.. Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn parkta dola\u015f\u0131rken, duvarlar\u0131 boyayan bir adam g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Elinde\u00a0f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131, \u00f6n\u00fcnde boya kutular\u0131, kendi d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda bir \u015feyler \u00e7izip\u00a0duruyordu. Yakla\u015ft\u0131m, biraz muziplik olsun diye, \u201cDay\u0131, beni de boyasana,\u201d\u00a0dedim. Adam […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":102148,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[37],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-103072","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-safak-genc"],"views":539,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103072","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=103072"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103072\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/102148"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=103072"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=103072"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mersingazetesi.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=103072"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}